“I know I’ve asked you this many times before, but I am asking it again so that you can confirm it in your own heart. Are you willing to go wherever I ask you to go, whenever I ask, no matter what the cost is to you? Confirm the response that you gave Me long ago so that I might refresh you now. When you said “yes,” I immediately placed you in training. That is what is happening to you now. I know that it is not easy, but one day you will see that it was necessary.
"Things might look dark at present, but I am faithful. I am with you. Soon we will move to the next building block of your relationship with Me. I am proud of you. You may not see any progress, but I do. Embrace Me through these times. You will make it. In fact, you will overcome.”
Phil. 3:10-11 AMP
10) [For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection [which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death, [in the hope]
11) That if possible I may attain to the [spiritual and moral] resurrection [that lifts me] out from among the dead [even while in the body].
Paul realized that beatings, imprisonment, hardships, and every other conceivable kind of trial led to the knowledge of Jesus, His resurrection power; and ultimately, to freedom from all attachments to the world. Without sharing Christ’s sufferings, he would not be transformed into Christ’s image.
The cost of Paul’s kind of anointing is everything we have and everything we own. Are you really willing to pay that kind of price? If not, how close is your brand of Christianity to God’s kind of Christianity?
You have to give me the proper heart, Lord,